Not all that glitters is gold: my YouTube tell-all

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Dear beautiful reader,

Thanks for being patient with me, as my newsletter comes a week delayed, as I was super sick for the last eight days of August (still have a cough!). How have you been?

It’s crazy to say that it’s been nearly three years since I’ve quit my job as a YouTuber/influencer, and truthfully, I feel like I got my life back. And I mean, my real life back, not my curated, edited one. In that time, I’ve had a lot of time to process and reflect all that I experienced. This is my YouTube tell-all that spans 10 years of all my influencing lore.

In this story, you’ll find:

• My origin story of how I got started at 15 years old

• How much money I even made

• The beautiful dreams I got to actualize

• The beautiful people I met and places I got to go

But also:

• All the strange, fucked up people & experiences I had

• The toxic behind-the-scenes of the industry

• A cautionary, old tale of “never meet your idols”

• The inevitable impact that this job has on your mental health

• The truth and reasoning behind why I eventually quit

• How I am doing now

I’m not going to lie, this one was an equally fun and emotionally tough one to write. For 10 days straight, I spent 5-6 hours writing it everyday nonstop and then at the end of each day, found myself completely emotionally spent and wept in the night. It’s strange because when you’re living it, it all feels so normal, just another day in the life. But now, I look back and go, “I can’t believe that all happened to you.” For privacy reasons, I’ve changed the names of many and censored important details, but this is undoubtedly one of my most revealing stories yet.

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